✨ Elle Vida’s Mirror Box

What If You’re Not Lost — Just Outgrowing the Script?

There’s a kind of unrest I’ve carried for as long as I can remember.
I was one of those kids who always felt like something was… off.
Not in a dramatic way. Just in the quiet, private sense that the way we live — the way society is structured, the way we chase things — never made real sense to me.

I used to ask questions that made people uncomfortable.
Eventually, I learned not to say much at all.

And so I adapted.
Played the role.
Lived “normally.”

But inside, I was always wandering.

For 16 years, I worked as a flight attendant for a major international airline.
I traveled the world — literally.
But the truth is, I wasn’t just collecting passport stamps or chasing aesthetics. I was chasing a feeling. Something like a purpose. Something like a task I hadn’t been told but somehow knew I needed to complete.

It wasn’t restlessness.
It was more like… a whisper.
A feeling that I was supposed to figure something out.

I spent years reading, searching, comparing.
I went through books, teachings, scholars, spiritual texts — from The Secret to The Flower of Life by Drunvalo Melchizedek.
From the Torah to the Bible to temples tucked in distant corners of the world.

What I found was a pattern.
A kind of rhythm behind existence.
Everything in this world — from breath to architecture to time — moves in synchronicity. So it must be following a language.
Not a spoken language.
But a pattern of creation.

That was my first real realization:
There is a structure beneath all of this.
Geometry. Harmony. Frequency.

But something still didn’t click.

Despite all that knowledge — I still didn’t feel it.
It was words, diagrams, ideas.
It wasn’t embodied truth.
It didn’t settle into my nervous system.

That came later.

And I wish I could tell you it arrived peacefully.
But it didn’t.

I had an accident that left me unable to walk for a while.
I won’t go into detail. That’s not the point.

The point is:
When you can’t move, when you’re not part of the “moving world” — the roles fall off.
You see things differently.
You see yourself differently.

Much like traveling to a new country shows you who you are in unfamiliar space — being broken and still shows you who you are without your normal roles, routines, or distractions.

And that… that’s when it started to make sense.

I began to understand that the external world isn’t what holds the answers.
It’s only a mirror.
And the real work — the real truth — begins in your inner dialogue.

That’s when I stumbled into the teachings of Neville Goddard, Florence Scovel Shinn, and others who pointed toward the simplest but most radical idea:

The world outside only exists because you are perceiving it.

If I’m not looking at the table in front of me, it doesn’t matter whether it exists.
If I don’t observe the person walking past, they have no influence on my reality.
Which means: I am the observer, the projector, the orchestrator.

Let me say it plainly:

We manipulate our own world constantly — through thought, feeling, and assumption.

And most of us don’t even realize we’re doing it.

We chase this thing called purpose as if it’s something to be found in the outside world — a title, a job, a partner, a path.

But what if purpose is something that emerges only when you become fully yourself?

What if it’s not a task — but a byproduct of alignment?

I still don’t know my full purpose.
But I stopped making that feel like a failure.

Because the more I try to “find it,” the more I’m chasing a ghost.
Purpose isn’t a destination.
It’s something that reveals itself as I stay honest with who I am, how I feel, and what I create.

For me, that means using tools — but adding my own nuance.
Injecting myself into every image, every blog post, every sound, every Sparklebox spell.

My ideas. My colors. My thoughts. My rhythm.

That gives me peace. That makes me feel like I’m not wasting time — even if I still don’t have it all figured out.

I’ve learned to pause when I feel bad and ask:

Do I actually want to feel this way?

Most of the time, the answer is no.

And if I dig deeper, I find that the reason I’m sad or off is something ridiculous — like someone didn’t text me back, or someone I liked didn’t respond the way I hoped.

And then I remember:
That’s a cyber world interaction.
It’s not real.
It’s not physical, in-front-of-me, human-time real.

And I take my power back.

That’s the point of all of this.

Not just to feel “better.”
But to stop giving your energy away to things that don’t even exist — things you created, fears you repeated, illusions you empowered.

I don’t have the full answers.
But I know this:

  • Reality responds to you.

  • The world is shaped by what you assume.

  • Every thought is a frequency that either empowers or imprisons you.

So the question isn’t: What’s my purpose?
The question is: What am I repeating? What am I reacting to? What am I allowing to define me?

If any of this resonates with you… you’re not alone.

And if you want to go deeper into the language of self-concept, thought rewiring, and soft reality design,
you can explore my Base Class series or the Dream Toolkit.

They were born from these realizations — and I think you might find something there that whispers back to you.

**✨ Trust your nuance. It’s enough.

— Elle Vida**